I'm so annoyed, agitated, disgruntled, discontented, angered, exasperated, vexed (I may have used a thesaurus for this part). It's not because I don't want to go back to school, though that is a point, but it's because I'm annoyed with myself at the fact that I haven't done anything productive. Nothing. Zilch. Isn't that how it always goes though? We tell ourselves that we'll do this, and that, and everything, but when the time comes, we just can't be bothered.
The thought of going back to school makes me feel uneasy. I'm obviously not the only one, but I really don't want to go back to school. It's not just about the work, it's about the environment, it's as if I go to school to get experience on a prisoners life.
Okay, I should be grateful that I get an education, that the teachers are qualified, that our environment is safe and we have all the facilities, but sometimes what matters most is how we feel, emotionally. We get told to be free, to express ourselves, yet we have a strict uniform and behavior policy, so technically, we're not free to be ourselves.
School takes this wonderful concept of learning and discovering new things and just completely ruins it with the tense atmosphere of judgement and strict deadlines and basing your intelligence on a letter which you could easily copy off google.
I guess that's just how high school really is. It makes me want to dip my fingers in chilly powder and rub my eyes.
|This is me crying. Feeling sorry for myself. |
Oh, and don't you think I'm amazing at making
these pictures. PLEASE, TELL ME I'M AMAZING.